/Ella Renāte Skeranska
My journey
I have had many dark nights of the soul. Many struggles with mental health in the past. I feel like I have been down and under in the past and now I am breathing the fresh air.
I am 22 years old, now better than ever, and before this I spent about 7 years going into and dealing with depression, and eating disorder, holding on for dear life.
Now although there was much darkness, I always, in every dark moment, felt a little light in me , sometimes so tiny, that kept me going. I am beyond thankful for this light, it somehow always reminded me that there is light after this darkness and that all of that was happening for a reason that would later on serve me and the world. It was hard to listen, hard to hear, but here I am !
I remember once in a movement therapy session my therapist told me to close my eyes, tap into my body and if I feel anything , if I see anything. I saw (that was a few years ago) a dark black hole in the top of my head. And afterwards a a small human of light appeared in the centre of my heart. I felt the white light, the little light was so tired and exhausted from battling the darkness. In that moment I started to cry, because never before I had actually seen it. My therapist asked me what does the little light need. Oh and I felt that it needs so much love, compassion and rest. So much rest . So I let it just cozy up in my heart and warmed it up as much as I could.
From then on many moments of realisations, change, small steps, bigger steps, tears, self-love, self-care, much has happened in the span of 2 years.
In the picture above you can see me on a beach during sunset. This moment represents my new found connection with nature, enjoying the magic that is accessible to me now. Connecting with the pace of nature, connecting deeply with myself, going deeper and deeper into this journey of healing.
My favourite road to take is the road of self exploration, development, healing.
Why I created this blog
This will at times be like my personal journal that you can come into and take what resonates. As I am learning myself , even tho being much farther ahead than I was, I wish to be honest from the start. Not a guru, just me :). But I do have a feeling that someone needs exactly these words on this page, so please, make yourself comfortable 🙂
With the help of this blog I am going one step further, sharing my journey, my knowledge, my experience. Who knows where this road will take me.
In this blog my goal is to take you with me and explore the depth, the little things, all things healing. And to give you an opportunity to feel the safe space that I know I craved for. Before reading any of my posts, remember to make your space cozy, make a cup of tea, light a candle, take a blanket. Whatever makes you feel safe. I know I like my space extra cozy, like making it a ritual.
Ella Renāte Skeranska
Passionate about healing more than anything else.